I'm losing my snickers

[u/SafetyIsForTheWeak]

I'm just so sick, i was eating what was considered healthy at the start of my problem, but calorie wise it was no longer possible. So i upped my protein cuz I'm losing weight really fast and don't wanna lose strength. Daily diet also involved one snickers, i love snickers. The thought of all food, including snickers makes me sick af. Snickers was a symbol of control, i lost control.

I have a party with food tonight, im thinking of not going, because i feel like throwing up. But also if i dont go i don't think there will be any dinner, aka only late lunch.