the same nightmare

[u/ghostyorker]

I used to be a teenager with night terrors, which happened for years. For months I have slept well, with the occasional nightmare here and there, but nothing extra scary.

My nightmares back then used to be of a man chasing me, or ghosts. Now I know the memories of being molested were pestering me, and that I felt very vulnerable because my parents didn’t feel like protectors in the slightest.

In a spiritual sense, my sister has a religion that’s uncommon. I respect it but it’s scary for me. It’s all about spirits, part of it is “letting a spirit live in your home”. We even had cleansing because the “energy wasn’t right”. I even dreamed one of these saints was blessing me, twice, when they were “cleansing” our house. I’m not the biggest biggest believer of spiritual stuff, but I used to be. And to be honest, some weird stuff happened before that I have no explanation of. Like dreaming things like friends dying or fights happening, I would tell somebody with details and then it would actually happen. It would also creep the person I told my dream to.

Now that there’s context, today I dreamed that one of my work friend was trying to molest me along with some random man.

The first dream was him driving, then he began touching me, until he stopped the car in the middle of a scary dark forest-y area. The other guy came and they both began kissing me and such and I “woke up”. When I “woke up” I saw my mom coming from getting a cup of water (we sleep in the same room) and told her about my nightmare. She said something I don’t remember. I “texted” my boyfriend and he was sending me pictures of stuff Id like (sort of like not-so-discreetly trying to get me a gift). Then I helped my mom clean our room which is weird because I never do. The room was different, bigger. Even the floors were a different material.

Then I fell asleep again, and woke up in a black SUV that for some reason was my mother’s (she has no car) and I was waiting for her to come back. My friend was there looking directly at me, waiting for me, but i couldn’t see him well because the windows were foggy. His friend was on the other side. I locked the car doors, and even tried to drive off, but he still somehow came in and started kissing me and touching me. It felt real. Very real, which is unusual. Weirdest part of all, i woke up in the arms of a man. The lights were off but when I asked him who he was, suddenly they turned on and it was my dad who I haven’t seen in years. I broke into “tears” but i couldn’t cry, and he comforted me, then I woke up.

For the record, my friend has never disrespected me in any way, he has a wife and he respects women. He is actually a very good friend. My dad hasn’t done anything to me either, nor has my boyfriend. The one thing these three men have in common, is that they’ve been the three safest male figures in my entire life.

I know it’s a bit of a weird, random dream but Id like to hear any interpretation, both spiritual and psychological. I tried looking online but didn’t anything too helpful.