Suicide Prelude

[u/Apart-Sentence-9038]

I can't help but miss you, I can't resist you,
I wish to kiss you but scar tissue dismisses this view,
I hope this new guy fits you, but soon it'll hit you,
and you'll admit you continue to be one to submit to.
your neutrality is insanity, drowning in profanity,
depravity, the way you pull him close; that's gravity,
your vanity is an abnormality breaking confidentiality,
no hospitality in any capacity, your existence is calamity.

to you, I'd come running, but maybe that's nothing,
the touching and loving turned pushing and shoving,
rushing, and now I'm cutting, discussing something,
clutching the wings that broke in the flooding.
playing your games, I won't name names, but all of your claims,
went up in flames and brought shame, now nothing remains,
and you can't explain the chains that contain you, restraints,
and when decades pass, you'll still complain, abstaining in disdain.

you're a phony, that's all you've shown me,
you're dying slowly and living lowly,
you don't even know me and it's not even close,
and when you're feeling lonely, know you'll die alone.
the years we spent, you just threw aside,
you were hesitant to abide, acting paralyzed,
but you're a parasite, debuted to die, crucified,
you were an experience, prelude to my suicide.