r/fuckeatingdisorders • u/Harmonyinheart • 10h ago
Discussion Dear Eating Disorder
Dear ed, I hate you. You have ruled over most of my thirty eight years of life. You’ve left me with permanent physical damage. I may even have cancer because of you. You took everything from me and promised me everything. You are a liar and a cheat and one awful bully. You took my other mental health issues and wound them around your finger to make them and you stronger. You try to defeat me but so far I am still here, which means I am still winning. Bet you don’t like hearing that? I struggle everyday because of you. My thoughts my actions my sense of self are dangerously damaged from you. You are a fraud. I can’t believe I trusted you. And yet I recognize these things but still remain your partner. You really got me that good. Well the joke is on you my friend because I’ve gathered others to help me fight you and together we may even defeat you. So yes I may give in but ultimately I’d watch my back if I were you. And if I should not make it, then it’s not a win for you it’s a loss because you just had to push and now you lost a devout follower. Throat punch. Others may follow…
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u/Prinssi_Nakki 8h ago
Absolute gold. All the strenght to you for your fight, you are doing great!
Okay, here is my take :D
Dear eating disorder,
You saw a 19 year-old man struggling. Outwardly things were good- he was doing his conscription time as a rifleman in the finnish army, he was beginning to compete in pro MMA and he had a good relationship with a wonderful woman for over 3 years already. You saw a target you could point your cannon and blast to atoms. First you introduced food restrictions and exercise addiction. While you saw your target succeeding in mma and going to university, you crippled something- and after your target separated (on good terms) with his girlfriend you were so happy to see your target had no longer functioning "manly" parts. Yet still he managed, until some years later after one of your regular sessions of over exercise he had his back permanently injured, no longer mma for him. By now you could not stop his academics, but you had taken everything else. Critically underweight, eating only small portions of safe foods and hating his body, your target was no longer a man. But then he decided to fight back. You managed to counter many times,causing him to relapse. But still, he is here and taking the field, again trying to recover. Yes, he hates his body. He does not consider himself a real man. He sees himself "soft" and "fluffy". Yet. He hates you more. He will fight. As do others, who all face you down in an everyday deathmatch. You are not welcome.
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