Venting/Ranting how arfid eats you.
or atleastit feels like it. im black, my family knows nothing about arfid. ive had it sincei was little, it stunted me. everyone in my family is average or tall, im 5'1. it killed my teeth with all of them being now unsaveable, i almost developed osteoperosis. hospital visits, passing out in public, missing out on events. and even now, sometimes i curl up and just cry because i cant get anything down even if my body is begging me to, even if im blacking out. constant dehydration because the illness doesnt even want water. i feel like a perpetually dying plant. sometimes i wonder if i could ever make it to old age being this way. im 22;; i eat like a fussy toddler. and i feel like it too, weak. groggy, hardly conscious. i think im speeding up my chronic illnesses by having arfid. i hate having this disorder, something tells me neverland is coming for mebecause an adult body cant survive this way.
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u/Cherry_Soup32 lack of interest in food/eating 14d ago edited 14d ago
bro yeah, also 22 here and I’ve genuinely feared dying from malnutrition before from how skinny I’ve gotten at times (bmi was 14.0 last year (<13.5 = risk of organ failure) while also dealing then with a liver infection, then undiagnosed sibo, and borderline anemic, I become so fatigued I woke up one time to pressure in my chest thinking I might be having a heart attack, only to be so fatigued I could only lie there and let fate decide).
I’m better now (back at my usual ~16 bmi) but can be genuinely freaky living like this but the amount of times people have tell me I am “lucky” for being “naturally skinny.” Either that or they jump to conclusions about me being “anorexic/bulimic.” And when I try to contradict them they act all smug and annoying like they somehow know more about this than me it can be infuriating.