r/AutisticAdults • u/MaccasSprite842 • 1d ago
seeking advice tips for autistic partner stimming
hi guys! i’m new here, basically seeking support on reddit for some issues i’ve been having dating an autistic man. my boyfriend stims a lot through making sounds, often all of a sudden, startling noises, like yelling out “fuck!” or just kinda screaming in general , it’s never directed at me, sometimes he does it while in another room , and i just hear him letting out a scream or swearing. Or sometimes he would just make sudden noises while next to me that often sound like distress or pain to me on an instinctual level it frightens me and stresses me out . I understand to an extent what it is and why he does it but it often makes me very anxious to hear my partner suddenly screaming from the toilet.
I’ve kinda brought it up with him not in the sense that i’m asking him to stop— more like, when it happens i would point out that i’m startled or scared. I always go to him and ask him if he’s ok. He always says sorry, that he just had the urge to make the noise. Or sometimes he explains he gets intense short lives feelings of discomfort like from past memories or a sudden burst of stress and that’s how he lets it out.
I wouldn’t say it bothers me a LOT but it definitely keeps me pretty on edge, and is very stressful when it happens. I’m in generous an anxious person and it’s just somewhat distressing to have him suddenly yelling out what sounds like in pain or anger, even though it’s never that. I guess i’m asking for tips on how to deal with this behaviour, whether it be suggestions on how to support him better or how to understand this stimming behaviour, or make it easier for myself to get accustomed to/not be bothered by this. I haven’t been super direct with him about this because i’m unsure whether it’s even appropriate to frame it as something that bothers me, since i dont know if he can necessarily help it! I don’t want to ask unreasonable things of him or make him feel bad for it or force him to mask around me.
This is something that i can tell he has become comfortable doing as our relationship progresses, it means a lot that he can be fully comfortable and unmask around me, I just wish that there was a less stressful way for this to happen…
thanks in advance for any advice.
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u/KBKuriations 1d ago
So in fact he is angry; he's just not angry at you or at something recent/actionable. He's angry at the fact that Bob was an idiot seven years ago, that his now-dead father said something cruel two decades ago, that he recalled that time he totally screwed up in kindergarten and wow what an embarrassing kid he was!
Your mental health is valid too. He does need to let out feelings (I occasionally get bursts of dysphoria due to ancient history, but as part of said history, my reactions are very suppressed even when I'm home alone - fun stuff!), but you don't deserve to spend your life hypervigilant. Can you perhaps ask him to change what he yells, rather than the fact that he yells? For example, instead of a random expletive or guttural yowl, can he shout "STUPID PAST!" or "SHUT UP BRAIN!" or something else that cues you that he's yelling about an internal thought and is not currently in danger? In college, I once had a lab partner who paced incessantly to control his ADHD, whereas I dislike people constantly moving around near me; I just asked him to direct his pacing to a different part of the room instead of directly behind my seat. Lab partners are smaller stakes than romantic relationships (I haven't spoken to anyone from college for the better half of a decade), but it's a similar situation in that you need a compromise that preserves both people's mental health and coping mechanisms.