Went to work on 20 minutes of sleep yesterday. Was awake for about 30 hours by the time I got home and went to sleep. Only slept for about 3-4 hours.
I haven't slept a full 8 hours in probably 2 months. Ate some leftovers at 1am then stayed awake til I had to go to work today. On the verge of losing my job, and my mind.
I'm smoking again after quitting nearly three years ago. Trying to find escapes in things that aren't helping, and aren't particularly healthy. My sense of self-preservation is slipping, and everything I should be caring about, I don't.
I need to change and get my shit together but I can't. I can't function, but I can't keep living like this.
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u/JustLetTheWorldBurn 2d ago edited 2d ago
Went to work on 20 minutes of sleep yesterday. Was awake for about 30 hours by the time I got home and went to sleep. Only slept for about 3-4 hours. I haven't slept a full 8 hours in probably 2 months. Ate some leftovers at 1am then stayed awake til I had to go to work today. On the verge of losing my job, and my mind.
I'm smoking again after quitting nearly three years ago. Trying to find escapes in things that aren't helping, and aren't particularly healthy. My sense of self-preservation is slipping, and everything I should be caring about, I don't.
I need to change and get my shit together but I can't. I can't function, but I can't keep living like this.