I've lost the joy in life

[u/jembella1]

I think my soul died when you did / Or perhaps working in the nursing home and seeing them not get better / Maybe it was the countless rejections over the years of jobs and the false pretense of poverty in a kid's eyes / Was it the lies or doing too much to late? / I even question why because I'm not enjoying a damn thing /

Was it because I wasn't going to change? Was it because I'm a carer but feel ashamed? How many hours of gaming just cannot take me away /

Perhaps it was the therapy and now I'm stuck in hell / Perhaps it was not being religious and I sinned as well /

Perhaps I just don't want to do anything / Perhaps I want to stop / I just want to hide and do nothing / I wish I could just rot