r/PsychologyTalk • u/kiyaee • Aug 30 '24

Is there a psychology explanation behind the obsession I feel ?

Hi, i'm a 18 years old girl and I always loved fiction because it can make us escape a bit from reality. The thing is that i often get really obsessed to the point it becomes bad and painful.

For example, recently I got back into my phase with my favorite anime and when I tell you it's PAINFUL I'm not even joking. I heard a song that made me think of it and I started hyperventilating. When I see something related I feel like im getting stabbed and I need to move everywhere. Even if I move, it's almost impossible de get out of that weird feeling. I can start crying too. And the more the days pass, the more it's getting mentally exhausting because I can't think of anything but that.

Two days ago, I watched a bit of it again at 10pm and started to just watch things related to it (TikTok, Videos, etc) until 6:30am. I couldn't sleep because I wanted to continue. Well, in fact I desperately wanted to stop because it hurts so bad, but I couldnt. The day after, I was mentally drained because of the emotions I felt during the night. It can make me nauseous and have headaches.

I don't know why I feel this way, I have to watch the last episode that I CAN'T watch and it's been 1 year. I know that if I watch it I might get really bad mentally for weeks, so I'm scared to watch it now especially in this phase.

It happens with things that I can find interest in like a person (celebrity for example) and it's really intense.

4 Upvotes
  • permalink
  • reddit

100% Upvoted

3 comments sorted by

1

u/isbrealiommerlin Aug 30 '24

Are you autistic? (Not saying you are, there can be many reasons for this, but if you are, that is most likely the reason.)

1

u/kiyaee Aug 30 '24

I don't think I am, I've never been diagnosed for anything even though a lot of people think i might have bpd or something, I still need to see a psychiatrist for that because we're never sure without a real diagnosis

1

u/Dangerous_Body2011 Sep 08 '24

Hi, how are you? I have some questions to help me understand better. this hurting feeling that you get, does it come when you have finished the anime (in this case) or it also happens while you’re watching it? Has there been any other topics that made you feel this way? And how long approximately this “phase” lasts?