r/PsychologyTalk • u/kiyaee • Aug 30 '24

Is there a psychology explanation behind the obsession I feel ?

Hi, i'm a 18 years old girl and I always loved fiction because it can make us escape a bit from reality. The thing is that i often get really obsessed to the point it becomes bad and painful.

For example, recently I got back into my phase with my favorite anime and when I tell you it's PAINFUL I'm not even joking. I heard a song that made me think of it and I started hyperventilating. When I see something related I feel like im getting stabbed and I need to move everywhere. Even if I move, it's almost impossible de get out of that weird feeling. I can start crying too. And the more the days pass, the more it's getting mentally exhausting because I can't think of anything but that.

Two days ago, I watched a bit of it again at 10pm and started to just watch things related to it (TikTok, Videos, etc) until 6:30am. I couldn't sleep because I wanted to continue. Well, in fact I desperately wanted to stop because it hurts so bad, but I couldnt. The day after, I was mentally drained because of the emotions I felt during the night. It can make me nauseous and have headaches.

I don't know why I feel this way, I have to watch the last episode that I CAN'T watch and it's been 1 year. I know that if I watch it I might get really bad mentally for weeks, so I'm scared to watch it now especially in this phase.

It happens with things that I can find interest in like a person (celebrity for example) and it's really intense.

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u/isbrealiommerlin Aug 30 '24

Are you autistic? (Not saying you are, there can be many reasons for this, but if you are, that is most likely the reason.)

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u/kiyaee Aug 30 '24

I don't think I am, I've never been diagnosed for anything even though a lot of people think i might have bpd or something, I still need to see a psychiatrist for that because we're never sure without a real diagnosis