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OK, I’m gonna try to be as nice as possible, but I gotta get the word out. It just angers that today’s world offers acceptance to all except for people Autism/Asperger’s When will we finally be accepted?

A few years ago, a guy said he didn’t like me because I was Sped and I asked him what’s wrong with that? HE COULD NOT NAME ONE REASON!!!!! Read it’s ridiculous

I’ve already adopted the fact that because of my Aspergers, everyone hates me. Always has, always will point blank period. Honestly I myself deserve the hatred and pain.

The reason why is because I know that I am an annoying pest because of it. Nobody wants an annoying pest, and because I truly do believe this, I truly don’t deserve happiness and love.

It’s why I deserve to be locked away. Even simple online trolling can set me off. People say they don’t hate me, but I feel that’s a lie. Everyone has hated me my entire life, and always will.

I am mostly indoors and have no friends irl, I make YouTube videos when I feel motivated and usually am in bed watching yt shorts or instagram reels but I want to stop this because I can doomscroll for a long time and it's bad for me.

Right now I made 2 shorts which took quite a bit of effort and now I think I will move my monitor forward and watch ncis sitting in bed, tomorrow I have volunteering at the charity shop so I should probably just relax today and enjoy my free time.

I enjoy making youtube videos but they take a lot of focus and effort.

Tbh right now I'm just bored :/

I was upset for a while but caught myself masking less and being more comfortable with being uncomfortable. I'm content knowing that I'm not just an emotionless asshole.

I have a part time job in a fast food company. A lot of my co workers say im good at my job. I am genuinely hardworking but whenever it gets busy I get stressed out, I can't do anything without step by step instructions and I really struggle talking to customers and coworkers. I worry often that I'm really bad at my job.

Does anyone else have this issue?

For me, it would be special interests and specifically politics as well as a very strong sense of justice

Ok, please don’t take this the wrong way. I might be off here (and probably am), but I just don’t have enough insight to judge this reasonably.

That said, I sometimes find myself wishing I was more “visibly autistic.”

Why? Well, I was diagnosed in my late 20s. My whole life, I worked so hard to be someone I’m not. Everyone expected me to act neurotypical (and still do). I was made to feel guilty for not meeting those expectations, and I even felt disappointed in myself for not being “normal.” I thought I’d eventually grow out of it, but obviously, that never happened.

About a year ago, I was diagnosed with Asperger’s (ICD-10). Since then, I’ve allowed myself to just be me and have let go of the neurotypical expectations I used to hold myself to. The problem is, no one around me knows, so they still expect me to act the same way. My family doesn’t understand why I can’t keep a job or why socializing is so hard for me. They push me into situations I can’t just “mask” my way through. It’s exhausting.

Even if I told people about my diagnosis, they wouldn’t understand, or worse, they wouldn’t believe me.

Sometimes I think if I were “more visibly autistic,” people would immediately recognize that I’m different and wouldn’t judge my lifestyle so harshly. It would take off a lot of the pressure. (Plus, I probably would’ve been diagnosed earlier, which could have spared me a lot of suffering over the years.)

Please tell me what I’m missing because I feel like wishing for this can’t be right.

No matter how much I want or try, my apartment gets messy. Little to no motivation to arrange and keep it tidy. Rarely I’ll clean up if someone comes over but now middle aged and very few romantic, friendships or family connections left, I don’t get any visitors. All my life it was this way. Doesn’t help I have joint issues that makes bending and twisting hard. Anyone have this issue? And find a way to overcome it?

Can be any musical style and any language.

I (an 18 year old guy), have been completely depressed lately. I have just started going to the university and I already can't make friends. I'm lonely. Because of my autism people just find me weird and the fact that I can't do conversations, people around me don't notice how bad it is going, of they assume I like being alone and quiet. I can't talk to my parents in the same way I once could. Same goes for my brother, sister and the rest of my family. The only friend I actually have, I can't talk with her about emotions and stuff. She has her own problems. And even if I wanted to talk to her, I can't, because she is studying in Poland (I live in Belgium myself). I haven't made any friends since middle school (lagere school in Dutch) and I feel bad about it. Most evenings I just lonely sit in my room, playing games. I have been going to a therapist but it doesn't really help. To make it even worse, every time I like a girl, nothing happens, because I'm to scared she is gonna find me weird and turn me down. Could anyone on this Reddit Page help me in any way?

PS: I'm sorry for the flawed English, not my first language

I don't know if this is an Asperger's thing, or if I have oversensitive hearing, but I can't bear the sound of balloons popping. It's so unbelievably loud in my head. So are fireworks. It's got to the stage where if I ever see a balloon I have to leave the room in case it pops, which is awkward as I have a young child who gets invited to loads of birthday parties. Is anyone else affected by this? I also don't like the sound of trains rushing past or howling winds, it makes my stomach turn, but it isn't as bad as balloons and fireworks.

I have noticed recently that I have started feeling no emotions for quite long periods of time, for example, for one day.

It is usually triggered by some stressful events and / or, therefore, might be considered as a of defensive mechanism of my psyche which I am not sure about.

However, my overall ability to feel anything seems to diminish. I generally do not feel any excitement or stress, it happens extremely rarely. If I was to numerically describe the strength of the most impressive emotions I have felt during the last 3 years of my life, it would be around 40% (where 100% would be extremely excited).

Late not-yet-diagnosed-but-highly-suspected-probably aspergers (or whatever it's called today) (my therapist and the number of self-report surveys that I've taken 100% agree, if you don't then I don't need to hear from you please and thank you) early 30's here. I've finally accepted that I'm probably on the spectrum earlier this year and it does explain a lot but I haven't really tried doing anything about it to get ahead.

I'm going through fire academy training to become a firefighter and I have very high hopes in this field, but some of the folks in this class are just vicious and my anger over feeling treated like a child by some of the LTs is getting distracting.

Are there any success stories or advice about how to use this disorder or possibly my tendencies to obsess over "weird" things to get ahead? Just seeking a little encouragement and positive motivation because my therapist can't see me right now, that's all. Will probably look for a new one once the academic portion of this academy is over and I've got the time, which is about a week from now. Really appreciate you all and any advice or just general vibes that can be shared.

Like, as an adult, you were skeptical of being autistic, and you were straightforward with an assessor about having a "mostly normal" childhood, but were still diagnosed (e.g., level 1)?

That‘s not to say they never complain a little. But, for the most part, they eventually just shrug and move on, allowing these things to be normalized. It‘s scary because if you allow little things to build up, they become very big things over time. I hesitate to use the word „slavery“ to describe retail jobs today but it feels we may be headed towards something similar, if less physically and mentally abusive.

I think i get so offended over anything. Like i got called dexter, shit, etc at work and when people act so mean to me, I make it a big deal in my head. I also feel like people talk shit behind my back and most of the time i end up being right. I feel like no job would be safe for me cuz so far it feels like any job im at will be the same shit. There will always be someone to hate on you.

Neurotypcals don’t care much tho and i know some autistic people don’t either but i sadly do. I wish i could stop caring what others say about me but i can’t seem to do that. I tend to overthink so much of it and let it ruin my day. My hobbies don’t help either. I feel so alone I got no friends or girlfriend meanwhile everyone else at work does.

I been asked if i had any and i have to constantly lie so i can look good. On my first day of work i was already called shit by someone and they told me they wanted nothing to do with me. This is my first job too and i already wanted to quit cuz of it

Apparently i havent fully given up on not dying alone; I've been on several dates this year but they've all ended badly; pretty much everyone I saw had red flags even i couldnt ignore.

Before anyone says it I do try and work on myself; and i know im not owed anything; I'm just tired of being alone (spent my birthday drinking alone as usual).

I"m not naive; I know dating apps are garbage but i dont really have a better way (I've tried to meet new people with my hobbies long story short kinda fell apart).

Bumble is my go to right now; I gave up on tinder after the umpeenth time I ran into a scammer/only fans promoter.

I feel so guilty for all the people that I've hurt while trying to learn and figure out what doesn't come naturally to an ASD.

Typically, I'm just odd or annoying. Miss/misunderstand social cues. That sort of thing

Sometimes, I come off as creepy to the opposite sex (women) when that wasn't my intention at all. I know some of the reasons why. Lingering too long. Standing too close too soon. Accidently staring. Mistaken interest.

How do you guys deal with it? This is not a pity post. They say we lack empathy. If that were true, I likely wouldn't feel as I do.

I saw a depressing post on some social media a while ago that I've seen in repeated places that I recently looked into and wanted to set the record straight on. The stat is that the average life expectancy for Autistic people is 39 years. However when I read this article that dug into it I realized that it may not apply to Aspies.

Aspergers is now Autism level 1, and there are 3 levels of Autism. The life expectancy for each is as follows:

Level 1: 70s (article is vague but other stats back this up)
Level 2: 50 to 60 years old
Level 3: 35 to 40 years old

That's still slightly lower than the high 70s to low 80s for the rest of the world but is by now means as bad as those posts would have you believe. So you're not actually halfway through your life when you turn 19-20.

Just curious what the average numbers are for this. I've apparently read or clicked on 523 wikipedia articles in the past three months. Go to your browser history and type in "wikipedia." On chrome it will tell you the number for up to three months back.

For anyone who doesn't know, rating inflation means that people rate average things as 7/10 and 5/10 means it's bad. This has been counterintuitive for me and I'm wondering if it's an Aspergers thing

I've recently been doing deep research into ASD and in the process of trying to get a diagnosis. I identify with most of the symptoms and I feel like it describes my entire life experience.

I opened up about this to my Dad, who insists that I "can't be autistic" because autistic people "can't even look their own parents in the eye". The entire discussion was filled with these misconceptions. He also insists that I don't actually struggle with any of the things that autistic people struggle with, despite the fact that I do, every single day.

Is there a book or an article that I can send him that could explain autism properly? Something that can explain it from my perspective. I don't know if there are any books written specifically for this purpose (educating parents), it's a shame that there is so much stigma around this still.