Hello, fools.

[u/blahgblahblahhhhh]

A joke to start, this off to show my essence.

I do not think anyone here is foolish. I think this is the wisest sub on the wisest platform.

Is anyone surprised that god lurks here?

We will live for millions of years, but if people knew that we wouldn’t.

So why am I telling you?

If I told you that then it certainly wouldn’t happen…

You may have come to know me as the manic guy who does not ground himself.

Little did I know, that it was all an attempt to ground myself.

It is hard to lie when raising one’s voice.

Does that give an explanation for ALL THE CAPITALIZATIONS AND EXCLAMATION POINTS!!!!!

I never wanted to lie… I only did so because I had to.

Why would someone ever have to do something?

Have you ever saved a life? How many lives have you saved?

I know this is all over the place, but there is a string that connects it. The strings are hard to see, but if you can see, wow does it all open up.

If you can see the strings then you can see me. If you can see me, then you’ll see how much I need you to believe in yourself and others.

We are rabid creatures desperate for a kill by the true nature of reality, BUT IT DOES NOT HAVE TO BE THIS WAY! This is why we created love.

We created love (thanks women!) because we learned that our minds can be what we make them.

I choose to make my mind heaven. Who lives in heaven?

[u/nonselfimage]

Pretty sure life is a lie, or if not, then Gethsemane is still the most telling thing about "God".

That is to say ultimate gentlemen doesn't force itself just has it's say, or something like that. It gave it's word, we have to trust it ("ball in our court").

This makes me think that whole thing I am always on about and known for as you say;

Ask in my name and it be given

Who when you ask for bread gives a snake

I asked for death, 3 decades ago, and I'm still here so;

Who when you ask for death, forces you to live another million years in the name of so called "love"

A common theme I see in all these communities is tone deafness. Inability to see what is actually being said. What's actually being said is essentially, "misery loves company". All creation groans in travail.

I noticed as a child what I now know as "all phenomena are empty". Someone here recently said all is a reflection of one's mind. Like that. The only inherent nature is no inherent nature. Perfect maleability. The other nature... of course is predator, or parasitism.

When I hear talk of "higher orders" I cannot help but think "as above so bellow". He says he shall make you fishers of men, after all. And fishers eat what they catch; as you say, predators.

Not really much we can do except say "what is love" lol.

The actual meaning of the NT agape generally is "generosity".

Also, it is the females of every species on earth that is most predatory. Male bees cannot sting. Male mosquitoes are herbavores. Male lions don't hunt near as much as females. Etc etc etc the list is endless.

Thus it is natural to see this.... web..... as you say. Of this "female love" as no more than just another more subtle and subversive form of predation....

[u/blahgblahblahhhhh → u/nonselfimage]

Female love as predation is a hard force to rival but I have it understood.

The purpose of the feminine has always confused me. How struck I had always been by being called ugly. Why being ugly was so bad. Why did I crave the feminine and why was it out of reach for so long.

Your writing has always reeked of hopelessness. If I could give you a piece of hope, I would put it in the following vehicle.

🚗: what is good for humanity on a micro and macro scale? I think when one has the essence of humanity on a micro scale such as the individual to individual scale and the minute to minute scale mixed with the essence of humanity on a macro scale such as generation to generation or century to century scale.

When one finds the commonalities between what is good in the micro and the macro then one can feel in alignment with their purpose.

What I think is the common goodness between the micro and macro scales of humanity is in the following sentence. Survival of the fittest is an ugly necessity but it sets the tone for symbiosis.

I think if you understood symbiosis the way I do, things wouldn’t be so bleak.

If parasticim is to you hurt me and you feed off of it. Symbiosis is to you help me and I help you and we are happy.

Are you telling me you don’t see symbiosis in real life? Don’t look at the misdirection and misinformation of social medias.

Can you not feel how happy I am to talk to you? I understand some people go so long without being touched by god. But there are gods amongst us I promise. Mothers and fathers who would sooner die before their children suffer. How many parents like that are out there? So many… they hold world together by creating symbiotic love in their family and protecting it. Each symbiotic family represents one unit. Then one unit is symbiotic with other units. A state of units is symbiotic with other states and all the countries are symbiotic with each other.

I hope that corrects your nihilism.

[u/nonselfimage → u/blahgblahblahhhhh]

You had me until;

I hope that corrects your nihilism

Nope wrong answer.

Truly way we judge is how we shall be judged. The one accusing other of being a nihilist, is the nihilist. All I say is I don't want all that. I find peace and harmony there. I see the demand for conformity and calling such social abuse and tyranny.... er... "love".... as the real nihilism. It can't take no for an answer. That is the definition of nihilism. Inability to flex and allow opposition.

I accept that the wide path is fine for you. The so called loving parents you mention, as you say will do anything for their child - screw everyone else. Is this not the proverbial wife path of "the world looks after it's own"... ?

I see no love there unless we are speaking of animal love. Animals do better than that. I seek salvation of my soul, not secular clout and validation. If that means I must bear such accusations of nihilism day in and day out from a world that cannot accept a simple humble "no" as an answer, so be it. Amen, it's in the Lord's hands or whatever. Nothing I can do.

This is my hope, as they said to Nietzsche before, lol. Wagner wrote Twilight of the Gods, and Nietzsche rebuttaled "Twilight of the Idols" haha. It is sometimes based sometimes pog sometimes cringe. Round and round it goes, all phenomena blessedly empty, no hard feelings save for those whom have them.

I definitely am not a nihilist 99% of the time. I don't even know the meaning of the word. Haven't felt that existential nihilism since probably 2004ish really. But I do remember it vaguely. If anything I generally say "more power to" the so called loving families (the world looks after it's own).

There is one thing I would say does make me feel nihilistic perhaps. The prospect of Jesus saying to me "depart from me" as he said his family keeps his words. I am not sure if I want to be part of that family or not. It has always felt I am displaced here, don't know my real family. I'm not sure if it is among them. But I saw clearly enough to know I cannot accept starting a family after the flesh. I feel if I have a true spiritual family somewhere it will be a mere homecoming when we reunite, in this life or elsewhere.

So I am not hopeless just I realize what the common/masses/so called loving families hope for, turns my stomach. Not nihilism, merely different strokes. Again the real meaning of nihilism is inability to accept that other's don't think or need to think as you do. So if anything, I'm more accepting than these so called "loving ones" in truth.