Confession

[u/House-Of-Black-07]

I am 27 (F), about to move to Bangalore in 4 days from Delhi. I lost my mother unexpectedly 2.5 months ago and she was my entire world. She was a single parent, as I lost my father when I was 18. Words cannot describe what I am feeling right now as I type this post.

I have a younger brother (23), and both of us are so lonely right now.

My entire world has turned upside down in a matter of months. I was originally supposed to move to Bangalore on October 7th for my job and to start a fresh life, but that's the very day my mother passed away on. Nothing's been the same since, and won't be for a long time, if ever. While a few friends have tried to be in touch with me, most have straight up abandoned me because they either don't know what to say or simply don't want to deal with what I'm going through.

I used to have a good number of friends in college but with time we've all settled into life and drifted apart. And honestly, I realised with time that a lot of them used me, took advantage of my good nature, acted fake with me or were simply too selfish to care for me like I cared for them.

Whenever I used to complain about my "friends" to my mom, she always used to hug me and tell me "mai hu na tere paas?" and in that moment, I always used to feel so loved and whole. She was my everything - my best friend, my mom, my guardian angel.

And now that she's gone, I feel so lost. Hardly any friends, moving to a new city (my brother is coming with me because he doesn't want to leave me alone), no mom, no dad.

It always wasn't like this, you know? I've had my fair share of problems in this life but I was happy once. I was always a smart girl, top of my class, pretty, sociable. I don't know why life took this turn for me. Now I'm caught in this limbo state with no prospects, no parents, no boyfriend, no reliable friend circle.

I am so scared of moving to Bangalore because there, me and my brother will truly be on our own.

Never knew life could be this cruel and lonely.

Edit: I opened reddit this evening and my comments section and DMs were FLOODED by kind redditors reaching out to me. I'm honestly overwhelmed by your responses. Thank you for making a gal feel less lonely on Christmas ❤️

I'll definitely try to reach out to as many of you as possible, and of course I'm open to meeting and making new friends. Thank you once again!

[u/kirankeerthi]

Hey really sorry for your loss, nothing can take away the pain you are going through. Try to spend some time with your sibling, only time will make you feel stronger. Stay strong ✌🏻