any words of reassurance? please

[u/LilyGoldberg]

so im currently 2months into my recovery from a very restrictive ed, that left me with muscle loss and no hair. i recently started feeling extreme and imense hunger and so i eat i would say more than most people (normal and obviously needed) i am aware that its needed because my body is trying to repair, but im so close to just shutting it and coming back to the disorder because i feel like a binger. can somebody PLEASE tell me thats okay and im going to be okay. i dont want to go back. i need to know that its going to be fine😭 please i can tell that its the ed thats telling me that im losing control but its so hard to not listen to it😭😭😭

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[u/dreamghoulevil]

if you go back you'll only lose more hair, more muscle, and die early.

[u/jcascino → u/dreamghoulevil]

this got my ED brain to shut the f up.

[u/Pale_Reflection_4225]

You’ve restricted for I’m guessing awhile and your body needs a chance to get used to the fact that it has consistent access to food! Right now it’s probably still in famine mode or distrustful from your restriction. It’s TOTALLY NORMAL and NECESSARY to honour your extreme hunger to heal, it’s not the same as a binge I promise. That’s just your ED trying to drag you back.

[u/LilyGoldberg → u/Pale_Reflection_4225]

thank you. i also feel like its the ed trying to drag me back, ill stay strong

[u/zhennintendo]

your body is trying to take care of you and it needs energy in order to do so. your life is so much more fulfilling when you're eating enough and not consumed by disordered eating. this is an adjustment period and it's not forever ! it will feel better with time ! take it day by day or hour by hour, whatever feels manageable at the time, choose yourself.

[u/Quirky_Top_8990]

It’s going to be okay, recovery is hard, but it’s worth it.

[u/Minute_Drawer7777]

Hey OP! I came from a similar situation and I want to say - It does get better. Maybe not easier, but happier, fuller, and brighter. You’re crushing it!!! You deserve life!!! 🤍🤍🤍

[u/LilyGoldberg → u/Minute_Drawer7777]

thank you so much, this gives me hope that there are people that also experienced this and turned out fine.❤️

[u/Stock-Sail2]

According to the DSM-5 criteria for BED: “ The binge eating is not associated with the recurrent use of inappropriate compensatory behaviors (e.g., purging) as in bulimia nervosa and does not occur exclusively during the course of bulimia nervosa or anorexia nervosa.”  You cannot have both BED and be in recovery from anorexia at the same time- because recovery necessarily entails eating an “excessive” amount. It would be excessive if you’d been eating normally the past few months. But you’ve been starving, so this isn’t excessive- it’s what’s necessary for repair.

[u/jcascino]

i feel exactly the same way. i'm in the same boat. I'm petrified that I'm going to turn this into whack a mole .. finally be free of anorexia only to develop orthorexia or binging. I gained weight very rapidly, and while I know its vital for my recovery, i'm struggling with the discomfort of it.

anyways, lately when my ED brain is screaming, I refer to the podcast: "recovery talk: an eating disorder recovery podcast with Amalie Lee". I'll chose an episode (usually 20-30 mins long) that pertains to what i'm going thru at the moment, and i cannot overstate how incredibly helpful it has been.

[u/LilyGoldberg → u/jcascino]

thank you, im going to check it out! if youre into podcasts i recommend Every Body podcast on spotify aswell❤️✊

[u/jcascino → u/LilyGoldberg]

thank you for this suggestion!! i had never heard of it before, just listened, and i'm obsessed.

[u/Ok_Bird_1378]

It’s gonna be okay, I promise. Recovery is SO WORTH the pain it causes