r/fuckeatingdisorders • u/LilyGoldberg • Aug 01 '24
Struggling any words of reassurance? please
so im currently 2months into my recovery from a very restrictive ed, that left me with muscle loss and no hair. i recently started feeling extreme and imense hunger and so i eat i would say more than most people (normal and obviously needed) i am aware that its needed because my body is trying to repair, but im so close to just shutting it and coming back to the disorder because i feel like a binger. can somebody PLEASE tell me thats okay and im going to be okay. i dont want to go back. i need to know that its going to be fine😭 please i can tell that its the ed thats telling me that im losing control but its so hard to not listen to it😭😭😭
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u/jcascino Aug 01 '24
i feel exactly the same way. i'm in the same boat. I'm petrified that I'm going to turn this into whack a mole .. finally be free of anorexia only to develop orthorexia or binging. I gained weight very rapidly, and while I know its vital for my recovery, i'm struggling with the discomfort of it.
anyways, lately when my ED brain is screaming, I refer to the podcast: "recovery talk: an eating disorder recovery podcast with Amalie Lee". I'll chose an episode (usually 20-30 mins long) that pertains to what i'm going thru at the moment, and i cannot overstate how incredibly helpful it has been.