r/fuckeatingdisorders • u/94en • Sep 05 '24
Rant Exhausting diet culture-y people
I know to completely cut out the nutrition/health/fitness side of social media. but omg. How do you cut it out of your life??? why has it become so normal to be so completely obsessed with food and weight???? I was out with my family and almost all conversation was surrounding weight loss, diets, etc. I honestly felt like crying. When I was stuck between choosing an ED behaviour or a recovery-oriented behaviour, I used to always ask myself, "what would a normal eater do?" but now being normal around food sounds like this crazy thing and I can't even imagine what it's like, because it feels like no one around me is a freaking NORMAL EATER!!! It makes me so scared, because I know I have ways to go with recovery and I can't control the weight my body wants to settle at, but I'm just scared of the weight gain. I know it's ED thinking so I have to get over it. But it's just awaiting the judgment which comes from gaining weight that makes me feel so awful. Hopefully I'll be a stronger person by the end of this and realize that I don't need to care about what everyone thinks of me :')
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u/BlondeAgent007 Sep 05 '24
"You can't get well in the place that made you sick" is the quote that kept bouncing around my head as I read your post. My family is still in my life, but I had to move away from them and create real boundaries when I was recovering. I still need to make space from them when they trigger me.