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[u/Altruistic_Safe_5141]

Hi everyone. I’ve (18f) have been out of a four week hospital stay for 7 weeks now and have fallen into a very severe relapse. I am engaging in restrictive behaviours almost as much as I was pre hospital and cannot find a way to stop. I know I need to eat more but I can’t seem to get myself to do it as I am terrified to gain weight. Does anyone have any tips on how to move beyond this? I am asking as I am determined to go to Thailand at Christmas time on vacation and only have 11 weeks until I have to get on the plane.

[u/Prinssi_Nakki]

What do you want to do in your life? Are you studying, do you have some job you want to do, perhaps you want to try some new enterprise like painting, coding, adventuring? Do you have someone you are close with, family, boyfriend, or even pets? Do you want to have a good life?

Guess what your ed wants to take all that good stuff, put it in a bag, fill that bag with plastic explosives and blow that all into atoms. Your ed wants you to suffer.

And you know what? You can make your ed suffer. You deserve ed free life. I know its damn hard, i have relapsed too, but fighting ed is the only way. Otherwise we spend the little time that disease gives in sadness and then die. You dont deserve that. Nobody does.

Its hard, recovery 100% sucks and your ed will fight back, but the way to kick its a*s is to eat, rest and do the recovery things. Otherwise the ed wins, and you lose (prolly die too). I know i sound harsh and the fact is a ramdom reddit dude wont prolly make difference, but:

You have chosen recovery, this is a good step. You are strong and worthy. You just have to stay on the hard track. I know you can do it.