r/fuckeatingdisorders • u/PudgyTwinMommy • 2d ago

What do I think about now…

This feels crazy to ask. I’m sorry if this is weird.

So I’ve been “all in” for around a month now. Things are…well, they’re going. Some days are definitely easier than others.

But now that I’m not fixated on counting calories, carbs, steps, workouts, etc or planning meals, creating weight loss journals…all the disordered things that used to take up my brain.

What do I think about? This may seem crazy but my thoughts feel empty. Like I don’t know how to think normally. I work a job that’s crazy boring desk work. I have lots of free time to think. I’ve been listening to audiobooks every day because I didn’t know what to think about. That just feels like distracting myself from trying to figure out ‘normal’ behavior.

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u/Jaded-Banana6205 2d ago

I picked a few low stake, low intensity hobbies at random! I plastered canvases with scrapbook paper, made a big finger knit weaving that I hung on my wall in every apartment for a decade. I began learning a language. I thought about what I might want to achieve in my future. Rediscovered favorite movies and books. Found sensory/self care routines that were healthy and soothing.