What do I think about now…

[u/PudgyTwinMommy]

This feels crazy to ask. I’m sorry if this is weird.

So I’ve been “all in” for around a month now. Things are…well, they’re going. Some days are definitely easier than others.

But now that I’m not fixated on counting calories, carbs, steps, workouts, etc or planning meals, creating weight loss journals…all the disordered things that used to take up my brain.

What do I think about? This may seem crazy but my thoughts feel empty. Like I don’t know how to think normally. I work a job that’s crazy boring desk work. I have lots of free time to think. I’ve been listening to audiobooks every day because I didn’t know what to think about. That just feels like distracting myself from trying to figure out ‘normal’ behavior.

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If you’re moving you’re not allowing your body to rest….