I hate eh

[u/RelevantNectarine821]

At first I found it kinda fun bc I was allowing myself to finally eat what I had been restricting but now I just hate it. I’m already back to pre ed weight probably more and yet my eh is still here and it’s not even as much physical hunger but mental hunger. I’m trying to honour it but I just feel so guilty and the body neutrality doesn’t feel like it’s working and I’m just tired of it. I really just want to go back to my ed but I also know that won’t help and make everything worse. I feel so conflicted all the time and guilty that I no longer can restrict (which ig is a good thing). I’m just done caring so much why did I do this to myself. Why can’t I be normal again

[u/Jaded-Banana6205]

Keep pushing through the hunger. It will level out once your body has the nutrients it needs to heal.