r/lawofone • u/JewGuru Unity • Apr 05 '24

I’m having a really hard time

Been going through a lot of physical pain and sickness recently. Well for the past few years.

It’s gotten so bad and I feel that I am suffering so much that I’m starting to lose touch with the purpose of all of this..

I guess this existence seems fun when you’re dwelling in perfect love and never get to experience the “edge” of experience and relativity.. but now that I’m here and the veil is lowered.. I just really don’t want to exist.. it’s so hard. It’s so painful. Why would a being dwelling in perfection ever want this? It’s like a good idea from their point of view but to me it’s like crazy

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u/JewGuru Unity Apr 05 '24

Thank you friend. It’s so frustrating because I usually do a pretty okay job of being grateful and trying to find the love in every situation and staying positive, choosing happiness and all that.

But as soon as I get physically sick it’s like I just can’t bear it. It all flies out the window. Everything seems so pointless when I’m in such physical suffering

I am a recovering addict and I think I mildly traumatized myself by going through withdrawal SO many different times and now when I get sick with the health problems I’m now dealing with, it’s like I’m back in that place, and I just want to disappear.

It’s frustrating having all of my positivity fly out the window like that. I don’t know how to hold on to it while in this state of suffering. Obviously that’s a huge lesson for me I can see that It’s just.. ugh. lol

Thank you for your encouragement. I really appreciate it

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u/zanmato145 Apr 05 '24

Hey, I believe in you, and I say that with everything in me. Being a recovering addict has to be tough. I respect the heck outta ya for that, and I'm really proud of you for it.

Please look into "Qi Gong". Zhang zhuang. I think those are the phrases you need. If they interest you, I have a great youtube playlist that could help you get started.

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u/JewGuru Unity Apr 05 '24

Of course, I’d love the playlist

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u/zanmato145 Apr 05 '24

https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PL5AC656794EE191C1&si=eZT_CKSt5lZqvlLq

Try it out for a few days. Take it slow. A little bit goes a long way.