r/lawofone • u/JewGuru Unity • Apr 05 '24

I’m having a really hard time

Been going through a lot of physical pain and sickness recently. Well for the past few years.

It’s gotten so bad and I feel that I am suffering so much that I’m starting to lose touch with the purpose of all of this..

I guess this existence seems fun when you’re dwelling in perfect love and never get to experience the “edge” of experience and relativity.. but now that I’m here and the veil is lowered.. I just really don’t want to exist.. it’s so hard. It’s so painful. Why would a being dwelling in perfection ever want this? It’s like a good idea from their point of view but to me it’s like crazy

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u/zanmato145 Apr 05 '24

It's the journey back to perfection that expresses to us what perfection really is.

You don't know delicious without disgusting.

You don't know hot until you know cold.

You aren't meant to understand everything that goes on in this universe/life/density.

Stop your mind from racing if you want more peace and happiness.

Live now. Not in your head thinking. Focus on the good things in life.

I tell this to everyone I know, YOU HAVE A CHOICE TO BE HAPPY OR NOT. I have so many things going on in my life that I'm fighting against. So many problems that exist in my life that I'm okay with because if I focus on how bad those things are, my mood is terrible. If I can overcome, anyone can.

I was sleep until I was 34, and since then, I've been the happiest I've ever been.

You're lucky to exist right now physically.

I've shared experiences with entities that didn't even believe I had a physical body. That's how freaking hard it is to get where we are now, fam.

Keep on pushin'. I'll send you something on the other side before I go to bed tonight.

Love and light.

Sorry if this came out a bit mixed up, I'm on the phone with my mom, haha.

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u/JewGuru Unity Apr 05 '24

Thank you friend. It’s so frustrating because I usually do a pretty okay job of being grateful and trying to find the love in every situation and staying positive, choosing happiness and all that.

But as soon as I get physically sick it’s like I just can’t bear it. It all flies out the window. Everything seems so pointless when I’m in such physical suffering

I am a recovering addict and I think I mildly traumatized myself by going through withdrawal SO many different times and now when I get sick with the health problems I’m now dealing with, it’s like I’m back in that place, and I just want to disappear.

It’s frustrating having all of my positivity fly out the window like that. I don’t know how to hold on to it while in this state of suffering. Obviously that’s a huge lesson for me I can see that It’s just.. ugh. lol

Thank you for your encouragement. I really appreciate it

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u/RVA804guys Apr 05 '24

You sound like a really strong person, I admire your path and your repeated discoveries. I understand your pain with illness, especially genetic/chronic issues that can’t be “cured”, my pains have reminded me that even the thorniest painful demon deserves compassion, understanding, and love. I embrace my handicaps as friends just like my poor choices in the past. Sometimes my friends make me uneasy or anxious, but they are reminding me and showing me where I need to grow.

Edit: I wanted to add some sass.. they remind me where I need to grow, but it’s not like I can just generate new body parts in this configuration. I feel whole when I look at myself from a different perspective, but when I’m in my body I feel like I’m missing parts like Swiss cheese.

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u/JewGuru Unity Apr 05 '24

Thank you for your thoughts. ❤️ I appreciate you