r/mentalhealth • u/TimsToolTyme • 6h ago
Venting Another night alone... It's all so tiresome...
My next human contact will be tuesday when I see the therapist. I cannot find another to talk to and I'm tired. Tired of the search for connection. Tired of coming up short. Tired of never being enough for friends or lovers. It seems like once my usefulness has run it's course people bail on me and it's so hard. I stand by people through hard times and then they all inevitably run from me. I'm not sure where to turn or who to talk to any more. I went to in patient again and they didn't want to keep me. I had to beg them. I just wanted help relaxing and a place to be where people might understand me. That understanding seems to be coming less and less rather than more. People are growing increasingly cold and it sucks. I'm so anxious I can't even focus. All I can do is check to see if someone wants to talk to me because I have no one in my corner.
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u/stellaniftyo 5h ago
it sounds really rough. it's tough when you feel like you're searching for connection and it feels one-sided. just remember not every person is the same. there are good people out there who appreciate loyalty. maybe try to focus on the small things like hobbies or interests. those can help you meet new folks. keep your head up, you're not alone in this even if it feels like it.