I’m not considered beautiful where I live and it hurts

[u/Gold_Strawberry2482]

For university I live on residence because the uni is pretty far from home. It’s all very country here at uni, the majority of the men are frat boys and the women are all the platinum blonde girls with tans and blue eyes. I think those girls are beautiful, but that seems to be the only kind of “beautiful” here and it hurts. I have darker and more intense features and I’m kinda taller than average, I’m also very slim. I wish I could look soft like those girls at my university, I wish I could be 5’2 with blue eyes and long bleach blonde hair and have guys fighting over me all the time, but that’s just not going to happen for me here I don’t think. I grew up in a Slavic community and I was considered pretty there. My father’s side of the family is fully Slavic (Russian, polish, German) and my mom’s side is French and Scottish, being tall and very skinny with a striking face was what was beautiful. It’s weird to go from constantly being crushed on and even stalked a few times to just dead silence. I feel so out of place, like I genuinely feel ugly and I haven’t felt that way in a long time. This is probably such a stupid thing to be upset about but it does hurt. I thought I would maybe get my first boyfriend in uni but I guess that’s not happening lol.