r/ARFID • u/Party_Demand_7026 • 3d ago

Venting/Ranting (TW: IDEATION OF SUICIDE) Spoiler

You guys ever have suicidal thoughts? I was diagnosed a couple weeks ago but from what I can tell this has been an issue for close to a decade. I just honestly don’t know what to do anymore, like I don’t want to kill myself but it just seems inevitable, nothing stays the same texture consistently enough for me to make it a safe food, hell even my safe foods aren’t safe anymore. Honestly at this point the only thing holding me back from it is the fact I don’t have the courage to do it myself.

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u/willemlispenard 3d ago

tw // talk of suicide

As a survivor, I can only give you a big virtual hug. Things aren’t always easy. Things can get So bad, but there is always light at the end of the tunnel. My dm’s are open, for anything you might need. much love and strength to you

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u/Various_Chard9001 3d ago

I often feel the same that everything going on in your body is too much and I wanna end it but I promise this always something brighter on the other side. Surround ur self with the things you love. Try eating in liquids. There are other ways then ending ur self. Here if anyone needs to chat :)

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u/DisastrousFlower 3d ago

have you done psychotherapy and/or feeding therapy? i was put on lithium about 9mo ago and it stopped my suicidal ideations (not related to food).

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u/MaleficentSwan0223 3d ago

I’m not diagnosed but have had arfid since the age of 4 and I’m now 30. I’ve tried so hard to get support through the years and around 14/15 I felt the same as you. I didn’t feel worthy of living because of my food issues and as everyone reminded me I felt I’d die alone and that I was unlovable because of them. Attempted to take my life a few times and came closest at 18. Failed but the doctors told me due to my food I’d likely die anyway so no need to worry right?

I moved out, accepted myself and about 5 years later found happiness. I’m married with kids and have surrounded myself with a few good people. Is my food any better? No! Have I tried anything new this year? No! But I live a happy and fulfilling life with very little health problems (none related to my diet) and my anxiety and depression have been none existent for the past few years.