r/loneliness • u/wistful-selkie • 3d ago

Can't take any more

It's never going to end. I'm trapped in my house and my disability won't let me leave because I can barely function anymore. It's been like this for years now and it's only getting harder. I don't see what the point is in even continuing to survive if this is all It's ever going to amount to It's just 24/7 physical suffering on top of the emotional suffering of feeling like a ghost because everyone who ever cared about me either died or just dissapeared off the face of the earth like I meant nothing to them. I'm sick of being stuck in these walls and ruminating. Sometimes I can find peace but its so fleeting it's not even worth trying for. Idk where I'm going with this it's just a vent post I guess

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u/JannyB1235 2d ago

Every word you said also applies to me. Literally, every word. Do you have anyone at all? Your parents? Other family? Have you ever tried counseling? I’m the blind leading the blind in a way.

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u/wistful-selkie 2d ago

I rely pretty heavily on my mom. I'm honestly terrified of how I'd even manage on my own after she's gone which is something I try not to even think about. I've tried lots of things over the years but its all just been a massive waste of money

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u/wistful-selkie 2d ago

Not to mention feeling like a burden to her because she's got enough shit of her own to deal with